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I been homesick before. Like two times, and then I missed my family a lot more. But today it is here again. It actually came yesterday, and I do not even know why. The little girl I am minding seems to have fever, and I do not really know what to do, and the weather is not rainy..yet, but it is really cloudy and dark. The family is nice, but I am tired and do not remember everything properly. It might be because this month, May, there is so many happenings going on in Sweden. Loads of concerts, graduation parties, camps and stuff. Maybe.Every time I am homesick I start to count days, months and weeks. 16 Days till Elin is here!! After she left, 16 days till my mom is here!!!!!!!!!! And when she is leaving it is the end of June, and in July both my sister and my brother(s) is coming over, not to see me, but anyway. And in the end of July..then it is only August left. Also maybe Frida will come over and visit me. I just have to see it is working with my host parents. So thinking like that makes me feel better. And I do not want to go home earlier feeling I failed this. I want to stay, at least till August. 
The thing I longing for is when I am sitting on the airport in Gothenburg waiting for my mom come and collect me. And I have all this in my past, but it is still done. I really think I will miss my host family, and that I really appreciated the time I got to spend with them, but Home is still Home. Even if I can feel like home here, I can never compare it to My Home. My home in Sweden, with my cat and dog, my mom and dad, my brother and all the dirt and hair, my bed and our tiny little bathroom. 

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When I start to think about that, I feeling homesick again. Unfortunately my host mom will be home later today.. around 7pm, but my host dad will be here earlier. Maybe 5pm. I will ask them if I can go up and see a movie or something then, or skype my family.

Also Im so glad I have my friends here. They are sooo nice. Even if I only see them on the weekends. It is not that I do not like my family, becuase I do. My host family is wondeful, but sometimes you just need to get away from them to miss them a bit you see. 
This weekend I can only spend 40 euros, (because Elin is coming soon, in 16 DAYS! - sooo looking forward to it!), so I hope my plans will work. Now it seems that on Friday night I will go to Cork and we will go to the cinema on the Friday night or whatever..hahah,  (Belinda, Milena and Cristina) and I will sleep at Milenas house, on Saturday later on I will meet Elli, Sophie, Nina and maybe Lauren and join them back to Mallow where we will go out and then I might sleep at Elli's house and on Sunday we do not have any plans for yet.
Planning all this makes me feel better. 

I actually do not want to write when I am down, because I do not want to make you feel worse. But I just had to empty my head and feelings. 
Well anyway. I hope your week is great and that I will here from you soon!

Xxx Maria